yes, i too have become tired of our cup stacking friend. this is not to say that i don't admire his talent. he is going to make some woman very lucky some day. it just needed to be changed.
i've also decided to change the appearance of this endeavor. the heavily cropped picture behind the title of the blog was used in my very first post ever. it is "four trees" by an artist named egon schiele, seen below in amazing color.
four trees
egon must have painted this somewhere in between batteling a rediculously oversized marshmellow man and saving the city of new york from an overabundance of slime, stemming from their own hate, animosity and general stinkin thinkin. neither ray nor venkman ever really approved of his art.
but from what i can tell, the egon that painted the four trees was not of the most admirable character (particularly in areas of his relationships with minors). truthfully, i've never really seen much of his work outside of this particular painting and a quick image googling. there is something about this painting that gets me.
it's that second tree that does it. unlike his tree brethren, he's lost his leaves and it makes me wonder. has he given up or is he just ready for change? either way, he's different. the other three are still clothed in their fall gown but he is sitting there with his branches exposed to the world.
at times i 've felt like that second tree. i've wanted change. heck, i want it now. i'm ready for something new to come, for a change in seasons. there too are times i feel like i've given up. i grew weary of holding on to my leaves and just let them fall to the ground in hopes that something would grow back in their place. with each set of feelings there is a sense of solitude, a feeling i'd have a hard time describing better than that tree probably could.
for me there is change coming and not just the blog. seminary is on the horizon, which means pulling up roots for a while. i will also spend a few months of the next year doing some writing with ywam all over the south pacific. (ywam=youth with a mission)
http://www.ywam.org/ it's coming and i'm ready for it.
so i'll leave you with a few more of egon's tree paintings :
autumn sun
autumn trees
autumn puff
